The Worst Feelings Ever, According to People’s Experiences

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Whispers in the Void

Having nobody to speak my deepest thoughts with. Days come and go, people come and go, but nobody has been close enough to know me entirely. It is, maybe, because I don’t let them close to me. The ones I have allowed close to me have all hurt me so deeply that I have yet to recover from them. Maybe it is the fear of betrayal and hurt that may stab me again. At work, I do my work good enough. My manager is happy with my punctuality, deadlines, and decent work. But how do I do that after a heartbreak or the fact that my parents quarrel every now and then? My manager thinks I have a happy personal life. Heck, even my best friend thinks I have a stable personal life. Because they don’t know. I don’t tell them. And it’s the worst feeling ever.

The feeling of loneliness arising from having nobody to speak my heart to and that depressing assumption that nobody cares about me sometimes makes me wonder why I am fighting so much. Why perform so well at work? Why put on this happy face? Is there any day in the future when I can be happy? As days pass by, that flame of hope grows dimmer.

I am a fighter, but how much longer can even a fighter fight? Life just wins, sometimes.