The Worst Feelings Ever, According to People’s Experiences

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Ghosts of Tomorrow

Falling out of love is the most terrible feeling I’ve ever been unfortunate enough to know. Building a life with someone, dating forever, and being “that couple” that everyone looks up to, loving so hard it hurts. You can close your eyes and paint the perfect picture of them smiling. Maybe that time you went swimming, and you kissed in the moonlight, sleeping with patterns from the blinds streaming just so across her face. You know all her moles, all her scars, and the story behind them. You imagine what your kids will look like. Think about what their names will be. You have this idea of growing old together, of getting married and kissing their beautiful face on the altar. You’re just so ready to live, to go on this adventure with someone who has been your whole life. You PLAN. Together.

And then your interests and ideas slowly change, so subtle at first, you talk less, the honeymoon is over, and you realize you’re still just a kid at heart, trying to grow up and become YOU. They are becoming THEM. But these paths don’t match up with the ones we planned. All these plans, the imagined children, the make-believe wedding, even the stupid thought of being old and holding her hand on the bus. Everything, even the silly insignificant possibilities, is just gone. They can’t exist anymore. They’ll never happen. It’s over.

And everything else is just memories or things that will never happen. You can’t touch it, live it anymore. You know it couldn’t work, but it still haunts you every day that those… possibilities are no more.